I am too much of the old, and not enough of the new. I am getting depressed again...lol no surprise . I am trying to make changes, and to turn a new page. For too long there have been too many blank pages in my life, and now is the time to fill them.
My desktop is an insane man's full of clutter and disorganization, chaos. The computer is an effective tool , but when a computer owns you more than you own it there comes a problem.
So I am going to try do depart from here. The hardest thing will be not able to express Im not stupid to SOMEONE ANYONE, well as stupid as the world thinks outside. It hurts me the most to find out how low people see me . I am actually a little above average.
Anyways , I am going . I think it is something that I have to do, and should do . When ever I am on here it seems so important , and homey . I got to leave home eventually . I got to grow up .
I am going to try to find new meaning in my life from other and different things, music , friends, a social life , and most of all just me
You guys have always been there for me and I appreciate it. I like you guys, ya all alright except for that bastard showdown . Showdown I wont miss you.
I could only hope to return one day as the same person but a little more developed. I would not want to come back here and no one enjoy my company. I would like to be once a friend and once again a friend.
I need to work some things out though, I am 20 years old and I post on forums about my life, talk to no one about my problems in the real world. There is no level of intimacy in my life that I can touch and grasp .
I am too old, and too young for this.
No one is going to save me, I have tried with all my heart to help so many people on the net . All this time the irony . Though all of you have been helpful numerous times, I now realize that I need to do this last bit on my own.
It feels like its time to split guys, and so I am splitting.
I can't even imagine my world without this place, but I am going to try.
Cya... *very sad face*
Goodbye whoever you are... :cya:
You don't care what other think of otu do you? That's why I love you.
Cya, bookmark us for future reference!
You will be missed
Ill give you 10 minutes...if your not back by then ill assume your dead
Damn, you will be missed :(