Please help a guy out, I need the help of a laddie and advice. I like this girl, I typed her a message, but I don't know if all is good, please if you can help me , please pm me..I will send you the message tell me how you interpet it, and tell me if there is anything that comes across as being rude or wrong. :deal: :(
it's how a girl..oops
Why don't you post it here? Its not like we will organize a rading party and gouge your eyes out with spoons.
17th June 2002
Feh. Speak for yourself!
Yeah, you're probably better off getting the opinions of more then like 1 person that might PM you for it.
This should be good.
How a girl...Eats pie?
Ok,then what if you're her though!? _______________________________________________________________
I've never knew anyone like you before. Ive always keept my distance from you. I quess that I am afaird to be the person that you make me wish I could be.I have sort of given up on life. Few things or people have effected me in life as much as you have. You make me more aware of the person that I could have once been, when I see you I ask myself who or what could be more beautiful than her?You are the most precious gift to this world that I have ever seen. The day you came into this Earth, heaven's angels must have rejoiced, they all must have given you sweet soda flavored kisses and held you in their arms wrapped tenderly in the softest and cleanest of blankets ,as they gentily and ever so carefuly formed you in god's view and with god's love,and surely they gave you a blessing for you to be born such a beautiful child.For you are a true blessing for us all.You are so talented , and you are so unique and special.You play a instrument,you act, you can paint ,you can draw, you can do anything I believe. When I see you, I almost feel that anything is possible for you. You have the most beautiful attitude of attitudes, when I find myself hurting and sick of this whole world, I see you ..with the most beautiful and gentile and loving smile , you're just so happy and peaceful as you talk to your friends. I don't understand how to be like you, how to smile through my tears and repressed feelings...but seeing you smile is enough to make any red-blooded american boy shead a tear for love of creation. I mean some people fade quickly in our lives, I will fade from almost everyone's...I am probably damned to a lonely death.You on the other hand, you are something special. You are something and someone that everyone needs and wants around. You are probably destined to fame, you are so talented , so intelligent and beautiful that you are a credit on to mother nature, making it far greater than brillant.You are so gifted in the arts and your work is so beautiful I can always quess that it was done by you.
This world sucks honestly. People with problems and pain and suffering. Wars and politics. The world needs people like you, but it doesn't need anyone like me. I don't talk to many people, and well this is obvious in class. If there is one person that I have had a interest in, or respect and passion in there actions ,and in their abilties, that person is you. When I was a younger boy, I was in baseball , I was normal..sort of. I watched lamb chops,chitty chitty bang bang, Marry poppins..and all the normal stuff.One day though i was deeply hurt by a event in my life. I was effected so hard and so deeply that I couldn't even manage to speak correctly. I could not put a sentence together. I had to attend speach therapy. Grades 4-8 I struggled past my vocal problems, and I was brutualy picked on and laughed at by students at the school I attended.
I was devasted every day and hurt, when I tried to ignore my speach problems and fit in, I was still always hurt. Even the teachers at this "catholic"school picked on me. I was the misfit , and everyone seemed to know and accept it.Basicaly the way things are now.
Most people at the high school probably think I'm dumb or crazy, I admit that I call myself socialy retarded.Most people probably wouldn't care if I showed up to school the next day or not, my words are empty , my friends are few,even when I am there I am realy just another empty seat.
When I am sitting in a room full of people I almost feel like I am there alone in the dark, with echoes of the present past going by me...I feel like everyone and everything around me has gone to waiste, that someone else deserves to live more than I do.I feel like someone else could make better use of my life. I hear people chatting and having normal lives, as they speak of it. I sit there feeling like my soul has slid down to my stomach and that some day it could erupt and be let out, but day by day my heart, my soul does not grow any larger. I grow weaker and more "pathetic".
If giving up my life could be in exchange for the birth of some one as unqiue and beautiful and as precious as you, I would stop living this life, and the death of me and rebirth of the other would bring more warmed hearts and smiles to this world, than I could ever hope to do in a life time.If dying meant for you to live, I would die, I would give it all away, you are an extordinary human being, I hope that you are deeply loved, and that you are adored as you should be. As I see and feel myself dying and weaking, wishing that I could be more alive and normal and happy..I see you growing more stronger and more beautiful each day.
I sit there all alone, by myself. I don't say this to ask for pitty or for a care in the world. I mention it because I can't seem to avoid the thought, it seems to be a part of my life in practice.
A normal life is not something I could have, but it is something I will always be able to dream of. The side of me that no one sees, crying myself to sleep to dream imaginary thoughts that could never be real. I have had the chance to be who I wanted to be in life, now I'm trying to want to be whom I've become.
I feel like a character that could be found only in childrens rythmes and fairy tales. I feel like a brainless lion, or a heartless tin man. You are far greater than any child's rythme or bed time story, you are apart of my story, and there isn't a day, that I want to miss in that story.You help keep me here, I know that besides my name, you feel that you hardly know me, but at times when I see you smiling or when I hear your voice, it's like you are holding my heart in place, where it should be...and I am not so afaird to let it beat...but I know that you nor anyone else can hear it tick, that's what frightens me.
Think of me as a frankenstein if you must, and if it makes you happy, but I would never consider you anything less than an " nagel angel"
To me you are the ultimate example of happiness, and I am glad that you are able to make whom ever your lover is as happy as he must be.
As for my future, I think that I will find Edward Scissorhands, and I will go live with him,atleast then I wouldn't feel like I would have to meet some standard of normal, or of living human, I wouldn't have to try to act human, because I would already know I was.
This world is full of cold hearted monsters which call themselves humane, most of which seem to live better lives than me.I don't know how humane you or anyone considers me to be, but I believe that my heart still has a lot to yearn for. I hardly consider myself to be alive enough to be human, but it's not how alive one feels that makes him human, it's how well he lives and wants to continue to live.
I am about to the end of my journey here, soon I will be a zombie with teared eyes, and droopy lips. I will have just enough life and care left to simply become fat,to open potatoe chips and to flip tabs off of my pop cans...pretty lame future, I don't think that I realy would allow it to happen to me.
I don't expect this to change anything between you and me, I don't know why I have contacted you..if you have read all of this, then I am truly shocked...
I don't know why I sent this to you, but maybe I am not meant to know, prehaps I will never need to know,I am fine just writting pleasant and adoring things about you, without any reply on and durring any given day.
You truly have the character of an earth angel,I hope you go far in life. Only a god in heaven could create such a person in all of his love, and with all beauty in an infinity , you truly are someone special.
I quess that I just wanted to talk to some one. I honestly consider you to be a genius, so I figured that I could talk to you. Most people don't try to be as smart as they might, but you seem to be very intelligent .
You aren't going to share this with anyone are you, I mean it's ok..but, I could not handle the shock of everyone knowing these bits of my personal feelings and life. I am telling you all of this because, even though I don't know you as much as I could, I respect you, I trust you, and because you know your movies, plus your the "nagel angel"
I just wanted you to know how talented you are and how wonderful life looks wrapped around you, You asked me "what's wrong" one day...few people even my parents would never care or ask, thank you. I wont forget it. Im just telling you how I see you, and before I go insane I wanted you to know.
This is the life god is giving me, I will keep telling myself that I am just tired, but deep down inside I feel that I am much worse off than just being tired. There isn't much that I can do to change it, I wouldn't want you to believe that I am loosing my mind, so Id prefer just to be tired.
Well, you may now sort of know what kind of person I am. You can decide how dumb or isane I am.Honestly though I feel that you know me better than most of the students do, but then again, what do I know? I hope that you go on living a normal and happy life, as long as you're happy and live a normal life ,then I won't feel that my life is so bad,
17th June 2002
I hate the taste of vomit... What is your relationship with this 'girl' exactly...?
She probally feels totally over whelmed.
Give it a couple days.
Whoa man! I'm not sure why you are calling yourself Frankenstein and stuff... Very good writing but in my harsh opinion that is way to clingy. That note will hit her hard. Could g oeither way. She runs to you or away from you.
You should never put yourself down to a female. Have some confidence. The female species can smell it a mile away.
Is this someone you hang out with? kissed? good luck man.