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Ryojin

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#101 6 years ago

I've never been truly happy. I've been angry, sad, indifferent, but not truly happy. There's been temporary moments resembling happiness that really were nothing more than a lack of negative emotions, but I have never felt truly content and/or happy with my life, the world, or anything like that.


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#102 6 years ago

It probably doesn't matter what used to make him happy. It would take a miracle for the things from the past to make him happy again. A lot of things we just grow out of.

Too much opportunity in today's society. We're somehow expected to know what we want to do with our lives after a very narrow minded, science-based education for 10 years. That made sense 100 years ago when industrialisation was becoming strong, but this isn't the industrial era.




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#103 6 years ago
Schofield;5697736It probably doesn't matter what used to make him happy. It would take a miracle for the things from the past to make him happy again. A lot of things we just grow out of.

Well, I guess happiness is a bit of a stretch. Nostalgia is still quite nice though.

But I guess it's like Jeremy Renner said in The Hurt Locker, "The older you get, the fewer things you love." =p


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Ryojin

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#104 6 years ago
Schofield;5697736 Too much opportunity in today's society. We're somehow expected to know what we want to do with our lives after a very narrow minded, science-based education for 10 years. That made sense 100 years ago when industrialisation was becoming strong, but this isn't the industrial era.

That is part of it... An overload of options, complicated by others trying to push on you what they personally enjoy.

But really, my main problem with finding happiness is that I have a sort of mental block. You see, for the first ten to fifteen years of my life, I lived every single day with a constant barrage of physical and emotional abuse from everybody I knew. My family, my "friends", everyone except my sister who was in... Well, not the same boat, but a slightly more stable boat with fewer leaks. Things were so bad that I can't even remember much about huge chunks of my life. Even though my life has improved greatly, I can't shake the negativity that was beaten into me. It's like I subconsciously believe that being happy is somehow wrong, and I subconsciously do everything I can to sabotage my own potential happiness. I don't like it, I want it to change, but no matter how hard I try, nothing gets better emotionally for me. It was drilled into me far too early in my life and I've lived with it for too long for it to be removed.


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#105 6 years ago
Ryojin;5697742It's like I subconsciously believe that being happy is somehow wrong, and I subconsciously do everything I can to sabotage my own potential happiness. I don't like it, I want it to change, but no matter how hard I try, nothing gets better emotionally for me. It was drilled into me far too early in my life and I've lived with it for too long for it to be removed.

I know how that feels... but strangely, that suddenly got way better some time after I had moved away from home. I can't explain how or why, but some day, I was just completely thrown out of that. Still bipolar, but I now tend to change from "good" (or, in the extreme, better than I really should or even want to be), if you will, to bad, not from bad to even worse. I don't know what you can actively do about that... I still wouldn't say I'm all peachy but "cutting all ties", if you will, and finding something to do behind which I could put all my passion helped me a great deal. I'm a little afraid I won't be doing that well once I finish university and enter the repetitive badly-paid always-under-inspection full-time nightmare that is the beginning of a teacher's career but I generally now refuse to let that possibly rather bleak future contaminate my present any more. This is, by the way, not to say I don't get that strange feeling of not having fun although having expected it any more... that still occurs every now and then and makes you feel empty somehow. Don't know if this entire post doesn't seem stupid, strange or non-sensical. Welcome to the inside of my brain.


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#106 6 years ago

Life word has every thing in it, we always thank God to give us this life because everything which we are doing is just due to him. So life is everything and here in your thread i can see almost all things.

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#107 6 years ago

that's like very deep duuude




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#108 6 years ago
Ablion;5700642Life word has every thing in it, we always thank God to give us this life because everything which we are doing is just due to him. So life is everything and here in your thread i can see almost all things.

I don't thank God. He didn't bring me in to this world, and he didn't give me life.

The only people God supposedly gave life too was Adam and Eve. All those that followed was due to lots and lots of sexual activity.




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#109 6 years ago

Ryojin;5697742But really, my main problem with finding happiness is that I have a sort of mental block.

Even though my life has improved greatly, I can't shake the negativity that was beaten into me. It's like I subconsciously believe that being happy is somehow wrong, and I subconsciously do everything I can to sabotage my own potential happiness.

It is your problem. It is limited to you. Only you can change it.

Change will involve ignoring all those little things that remind you of the big things. Also ignoring the big things.

You had an option long ago to take one of two paths. One you allow yourself to feel happy only when it is the correct time. Two, you learn how to be happy no matter what is going on around you.

Like sucks, happiness doesn't come from without, it comes from within. Anger, frustration, pain, they come from without. You are blocking yourself, when you should be blocking out the world.




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#110 6 years ago

I'm also quite a cynical person. There's some truth in what KB says. I can think of perhaps two moments of perfect happiness in my lifetime. One when I was a kid 12-13, taking adult ed classes, and I was outside in town late at night just looking at the moon and this... feeling of perfect peace and contentment came over me. The other more recently was when I was in a flat and I just forgot about all the things that made me unhappy.

However, IME, there's not really a direct choice to forget to be unhappy. Even having experience it there's no switch in the head. It's more like - the result of forcing positive narratives on yourself, thinking of ways you can phrase things that emphasise opportunity rather than lack of attainment - that kind of thing. Seeking out people who'll affirm you rather than tear you down - while still providing feedback if that sort of thing's important to you.

At least, that's more how I experience things.