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#1 6 years ago

Over the years I’ve made it a game of sorts to test myself, specifically with self control or discipline. While most times the goals or tests are very simple, or even bizarre. Like the time I shaved off all hair from the neck up.. eyebrows, eyelashes, head, face, everything… or the times I've experimented with pain tolerance.

Now my latest one, was surprisingly difficult, especially given how easy it sounds.

The goal, was to go one solid week without uttering a single word aloud. Internalized conversations or “reassurances” were fine, but absolutely no spoken words of any kind.

I made it 92 hours before I broke my silence, and I have to admit that the most difficult part wasn’t in responding to others, or rather failing too, but it was in not responding to myself. Phrases under the tongue like “this will be np” “You can do this” ect ect. Not having those, was very, very nerve racking. I do believe had there not been a family emergency I would have made it one more day before the loss of my own self-talks would have broken my test. It was very surprising and while the test was totally pointless. I took something away from it, though what that was. I can’t fully explain.

My question is this. Do you ever test yourself, unconventionally. And if so please share some of yours.




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#2 6 years ago

In a way, yeah. I tend to test the limits of my pain tolerance. I've stopped that since I sliced my arm open with a knife, requiring 15 stitches, and felt absolutely nothing, though. I normally don't share that piece of information because most people would just call me emo or some bullshit, but I think you might have some understanding of the non-emo based reasoning behind it. It was particularly lacking in emoness since it was on the top of my arm, not the wrists.

I just might attempt that not speaking for a week thing. It will be much easier than it is for most people, since I stay silent most of the time anyway. There's only one person I ever talk to, and that person is very easy to avoid.


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#3 6 years ago

[COLOR=seagreen]I have not done any such things. I have to admit that such ideas have never come to me.[/COLOR] [COLOR=seagreen][/COLOR] [COLOR=seagreen]I will say though, that I once took a week's vacation, and went without a single human language vocalization. I spent the week alone with just my dog, and so for the entire week, I communicated in nothing but Canine language (Yes, dogs have a language, and quite a complex one.). I have to add that such fluency is a benefit of being raised side by side with dogs.[/COLOR]


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#4 6 years ago

I have never done that nor do I intend to, since I don't really see any reason to 'test' myself – unless you mean proving yourself for one reason or another; that'd be a different case.

There are many occasions however, where I seem to conflict with myself, which would result in me betting against my thoughts about various subjects to see 'who' is right. If that makes any sense.

Beside that, no.


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#5 6 years ago

It is very strange, and I'm not quite sure of the reasoning behind it.

I have to deal with enough in life, I don't need to add anything else to the mix.

@ Graemers, no, that doesn't make any sense either.




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#6 6 years ago

I wouldn't mind trying a vow of silence for a couple of days, but that isn't really an option due to work, family, friends etc.

Then again, I don't think it would be very hard for me (at least for a limited time), so it probably wouldn't be much of a test.

Master Lindale;5620173[COLOR=seagreen]I have not done any such things. I have to admit that such ideas have never come to me.[/COLOR] [COLOR=seagreen]I will say though, that I once took a week's vacation, and went without a single human language vocalization. I spent the week alone with just my dog, and so for the entire week, I communicated in nothing but Canine language (Yes, dogs have a language, and quite a complex one.). I have to add that such fluency is a benefit of being raised side by side with dogs.[/COLOR]

So for a week ... you barked and wagged your tail?




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#7 6 years ago
MrFancypants;5620182So for a week ... you barked and wagged your tail?

[COLOR=seagreen]Without the tail part, as I do not possess one. As for the vocalizations, and other physical gestures, yes.[/COLOR]


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#8 6 years ago

Ryojin;5620171In a way, yeah. I tend to test the limits of my pain tolerance. I've stopped that since I sliced my arm open with a knife, requiring 15 stitches, and felt absolutely nothing, though. I normally don't share that piece of information because most people would just call me emo or some bullshit, but I think you might have some understanding of the non-emo based reasoning behind it. It was particularly lacking in emoness since it was on the top of my arm, not the wrists.[/QUOTE]

Cutting huh? I can’t relate. I was stabbed years ago, severely, but that wasn’t my intention and the experience was too quick to fully appreciate. Cutting flesh is a relatively shallow pain experience, both in sensation and duration. The act destroys and separate nerve endings, and in many cases misses them altogether. Of course this depends on the nature of the wound, but with self-inflicted cuts, it’s almost always superficial. Unless one is suicidal.

The stupidest experiment I ever did with pain tolerance, involved flame, and was a one time only deal. A really good family friend was burned over 70% of his body and I mean really bad like Freddy Kruger, and it was from a DUI (someone else hit him). Well in my ignorant youth, I had to know what kind of pain those scars represented. Well, I immediately regretted my experiment as soon as I started it and I have to say, burning to death would probably be the worst of the worst. Other tests involved extreme stamina tests, marathon workouts, hill liming and generally healthy stuff.

I would advise against any knife play. Veins and arteries can’t always be repaired, and all the shit they say about emo’s is mostly true.

[QUOTE=MrFancypants;5620182]I wouldn't mind trying a vow of silence for a couple of days, but that isn't really an option due to work, family, friends etc.

Then again, I don't think it would be very hard for me (at least for a limited time), so it probably wouldn't be much of a test.

Hang a notepad & pen around your neck. It's what I did and people had to suffer my penmanship. You will learn something about yourself that can't be told or taught.




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#9 6 years ago

I thought this thread was gonna be about STDs.




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#10 6 years ago

[COLOR=seagreen]Testing yourself just seems to me like you have something to prove, either to yourself, or to someone else. Both of which could end up just getting you into trouble.[/COLOR]


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