I'm spending a year dead for tax reasons.
15th December 2002
So what's everyone been up to lately?
I've been getting used to a new job role and a lot of my time has gone into that lately. Also had a few trips out and whatnot.
Danny King | Community Manager | GameFront.com
22nd December 2007
Senioritis to the max. But I'm graduating this semester so it's ok. And lots of AOE 2. I haven't been out of state for over a year now and don't expect that to change until at least mid-summer.
All hail Daut our Lord and Savior
1st February 2010
I have been steadily working on getting my computer back up and running, although I keep hitting roadblocks where drivers will not install because my system does not meet minimum requirements, or some dll file is not installed.
Caffiene Fuelled Ravings of an undiagnosed Sociopath.
13th June 2008
"Lindale"I have been steadily working on getting my computer back up and running, although I keep hitting roadblocks where drivers will not install because my system does not meet minimum requirements, or some dll file is not installed.
Oh cool, what are your specs?
Mikey - GameFront.com - Lead Developer
Voice of joy and sunshine
26th May 2003
Working, driving into London. Outside of that, not a whole lot. Increasingly, I find that I don't have very many interests. I think a certain amount of that just comes down to the fact that, having worked from 9 to 5, (and when you include the trip having gone to work somewhere between seven and 07:30 in the morning and returned from work at somewhere between 17:40 and 18:30 in the afternoon,) there's just not a whole lot that you want to do. I had Friday off this week, and I spent most of that sleeping, I slept a couple of hours this afternoon as well.
It's just been an awfully large amount of stress for quite a few months now. Quite a few of the resources that we are expecting to have to do the things that we need to do to deliver against our targets aren't there. And don't get me wrong, I like the people, and I don't think my line manager is incompetent, or anything like that. The only reason I'm still there is I like the people and don't want to drop them in the shitter.
It's just the amount of crap you get from senior management dropped on your head over something that you really can't do anything about. You were promised a particular set of resources as one of the basic assumptions of the targets that you took on, and those resources aren't there. There's no clever motivational trick you can pull, by stressing people the hell out, that's going to fix that. And there are only so many times you can tell people that the resources are going to be available this time before your staff decide you're working on a wing and a prayer (hint: once will do for me.)
There are some political actions that we've taken recently in terms of getting some difficult external contractors killed off - figuratively speaking - and there's some stuff that we've done to try and source those resources. Probably nuked our internal relationships with people who liked that contractor but at this point it's a matter of survival - so fuck 'em is what I'm saying there, I don't think there's a career here to burn anyway. But ultimately, if those resources aren't there in two months time, then I'm not going to be there either. This really is reaching the point, with a couple of months either way, where I've had enough of people messing about. It's just getting to be beyond a joke. You can't just apply abuse to your staff until performance improves. Sometimes there's a real reason that performance is at the level it is in some particular respect - and you have to assume that your staff are doing the best that they can in a difficult situation or provide behavioural feedback on and around what you'd like them to do differently.
Heh. Still alive though ^_^ As long as you're alive you're winning. And they pay me so... that's nice I guess.
1st February 2010
"Mikey"Oh cool, what are your specs?
Same as before, just with a new hard drive. This time, I have the actual Windows disk if the Windows Update gives me another Intel driver that bricks my system.
Operating System: MS Windows 7 Professional 64-bit SP1
CPU: Intel Core i5 @ 3.00GHz
Motherboard: Dell Inc. 0GDG8Y (CPU 1)
RAM: 8.00 GB Dual-Channel DDR3 @ 665MHz (9-9-9-24)
Video Card: AMD Radeon HD 6450 (Unknown)
22nd December 2007
I'm at that point in life where I really haven't done that much and need to start making decisions that will affect me more and more down the road. Should I forget going to grad school altogether, or just put it off a year or so? Who should I work for, and what should my focus be? Where will I get my sense of purpose in this life? How can/should I contribute to society? I want to travel the world, or at least the country, experience new things, and maybe make some functional friendships. Perhaps get married in the future, or at the very least find a girl who would be a romantic partner. My relationship skills are almost null right now though, so I've got a long way to go before I can think about any serious relationship. Basically, I have now the freedom to do whatever I want, but I have very little motivation to go do something different. I've gotten very used to my lifestyle and it feels easier to keep things simple and comfortable than to undertake new things that will almost certainly be very difficult for me. The shortness of life hits me almost every night. I ask myself what I'm doing, and where I'm going but have no answer. I keep distracting myself with life, games, etc. and can avoid deciding where to go so I do that, and life naturally remains on the path of least resistance where I'm not really doing anything wrong but I'm not heading in any particular direction.
It seems that this sort of thing is common with the majority of people. We just sort of sit down and ride through life, passively watching what is happening around us and wondering wtf ever happened to those dreams every adult told us we should follow.
All hail Daut our Lord and Savior
15th September 2004
Got into "hardcore" KSP gaming, doing my own RSS project.
I gotta do something fun with my graduate-level education. :p You should see the math I've done.
Also, since I'm getting treatment for ADD again, I'm trying to get a job through vocational rehabilitation again. They're sending me for a 4-week eval today and then I might get to take C# courses before they help me get a job (I hope).
Faktrl is Best Pony
10th September 2007
Continually searching for a reason to keep going beyond survival. I will be taking a sabbatical from school for a bit while I search for a specialist therapist and hopefully get my bearings before committing to a firm school schedule or major. There's also a possibility that I'm dyslexic (go figure) but that's something for the docs. In the mean time I'm just sort of floating around doing a bit of reading here and there, mainly texts by Aristotle, some poetry, and a little bit of math formulas. I'm kind of at that point where I don't seem to have any more ambition left and that there's really no point in trying anymore, so I figure fuck it I'll just keep myself satisfied with shelter and internet access until I shuffle off this mortal coil. Since I've no real interests I've pretty much decided that I can't really ever be useful to anyone or anything, so in terms of motivation most of my jobs will be just something where I act as a machine performing specific functions in exchange for the resources to maintain a consistent lifestyle.
Perhaps I'll get a romantic involvement, who knows? I feel attraction, but I don't go looking for relationships mainly because most people I meet are already in one or they're boring people who don't do much for me beyond their physical features. Perhaps I'll make some "real life" friends, but again I won't actively be seeking them out.
I've also heard rumors that America is in the process of developing civilization, but it's still largely in the alpha stages and probably won't be seen for quite a while. So I guess for the moment I'll have to make do with these disingenuous, half-witted brigands.
But hey, nobody ever said human life was an objectively good thing. Nobody sane anyway. The rest of the universe seems to be doing just fine without it.
That's about it.
"I'd shush her zephyr." ~ Zephyr.
1st February 2010
"Nittany Tiger"Got into "hardcore" KSP gaming, doing my own RSS project.[/quote] That is what I dearly love so much about Kerbal Space Program. It is silly, and cute, and endless fun all day long. BUT, it does have real science in it, so it can be serious when you want it to be. Although, personally, I do it just to find the most comedic ways to blow up. [quote="Adrian Ţepeş"]I've also heard rumours that America is in the process of developing civilization, but it's still largely in the alpha stages and probably won't be seen for quite a while.
Um....Who told you that? Did you see their last election? It was Dumb vs Dumber, and everyone was voting based on gender, instead of voting based on the candidate. No matter who wins, America loses. And then, everyone started rioting when they failed to get their woman President. If anything, America is DE-civilizing.