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Darkness Knight 15

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#1 14 years ago

I used to think about death and about comiting suicide almost daily, though I never would admit to anybody that it truly was daily untill now, in this thread. But I just wanted to make a thread about getting away from depression, and suicidal depression. This is what worked for me, and I have for the last few days laughed at the past attempts I have nearly made to kill myself. There are a few people on these forum that know how depressed I can get at times. And many who have helped me get over it. I won't go into details on who they are. If they want people to knw who to go to for help, then they can post in this thread, if they don't I'm not going to "ruin their cover" for the curiosity of the people on this forum. Just read through this and try to use it in your lives, it helped me alot, and I hope it can help other people as well. Now that I have my girlfriend, thinking about being gone from everything, being dead, just hurts, no more suicide for me. I can't stand the thought of never seeing her again, and I don't want to make her depressed due to a stupid act of mine like suicide. I believe you have one and only one "real" life, and afterward is one of the 3 previously mentioned events. A week ago I would have gladly ended it all for me, now I would not end it for pretty much anything. And if I did die, and there is an afterlife, that would be hell for me even if I (somehow) ended up in heaven, I would miss her to much. So basicly, to everyone out there that reads this thread, or I should say, this post, and is suicidally depressed, or depressed at all, don't go that way. Just know and believe that your life will get better eventually, cause it will. I learned that through my girlfriend. I used to think I would never have any luck with the ladies, I used to think I was to ugly and stupid for any girl. She has changed my mind on that in the 5 days I have known her. And she has made me love my life to a degree that even though I am living it, I still can't fully imagine. Just be your self and life will eventually get better, much, much better. And you will then look back on your suicidal times and laugh at your self. You can defeat depression, its not hard, you just have to try and not give up. Good luck. - Darkness Knight 15 :cool:




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#2 14 years ago

Don't really know what to say but I am glad you didn't do anything stupid. Suicide kills more people than yourself, and is a very selfish thing to do. I am glad things are looking up for you. Just remember if things turn sour for you again, think about this feeling you are feeling right now. Bottle it up and look back on what is possible in life.

-good luck. you're not really 14 and having those thoughts are you?




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#3 14 years ago

Yeah, I am, or was. And yeah, thats what I intend to do, even if by some crazy ass shity event makes me and my girlfriend break up, I am going to hold true to my promise to her that I will try to never let depression get me hard again, and if it does, that I will not under any cimcumstances hurt myself due to it. That promise is still active as long as she is alive. And I don't know what I would do if she got killed.




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#4 14 years ago

Yea, good for you. I was once depressed, nothing was going right in my life, and I too thought regularly of killing myself. Either by hanging myself or blowing my brains out in the middle of class with a pistol, I could never choose. About the same time I became kind of a skin-head neo-nazi, I was mean, a racist, full of anger and hate for anyone I deemed not-perfect in ethnicity. I grew out of that about a year ago, but long after my depression which stopped about 2 or 3 years ago. I look back at what I was and thing "what the hell was I thinking?". I've taken a 180 in how I feel, my political views [they went from far right, to middle-left]. I'm a much happier person now, but I still have my hard down times when I go to the bottle for help, but thats not too much of a problem anymore either, I'm starting to end that too.




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#5 14 years ago
Darkness Knight 15 And I don't know what I would do if she got killed.

If something does ever happen, just remember there is so many more people out there that will love you, and want love in return. Suicide is weak. Be strong.




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#6 14 years ago

I was depressed and still am, but really I don't know what it is making me depressed. I guess it is just my environment. But I am still a happy kid who likes to have fun, I am just depressed at the same time. Suicide has never really crossed my mind before. I thought about it once, but I only thought about what it would be like to take my own life, I didn't actually think about doing it. I think most kids think about suicide, but not about actually commiting it.




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#7 14 years ago
Darkness Knight 15...And many who have helped me get over it...

;) Nice post mate, maybe people should think twice about being as stupid to top 'emselves.




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#8 14 years ago
IrreleventI think most kids think about suicide, but not about actually commiting it.

Yeah, I passed the line though. Nearly.

I am pretty much completely finished with depression, my girl made me realize what I really am. I just made this thread to help other people, but still, thanks guys. It means a lot to me.




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#9 14 years ago

As far as I can tell, the only reason I'm still alive is my best friend made me promise I'd stop trying to kill myself. But remember, choosing not to die isn't the same thing as choosing life. You really have to force yourself to live your life. And in time you'll start enjoying yourself again. I mean, if you aren't going to live your life, you may as well be dead, right? It' something I was told before, but I guess you have to pick it up on your own. Good luck with that.




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#10 14 years ago

I was a bit ago, I thought that nobody really cared about me and nobody would care if I wasn't there and that I only brought misery into peoples lives. I had nothing to look forward to, but now i'm over it. Looking back I see i'm pretty wrong and that my family cares about me, so I got over it and now my life is fine. Listening to music helps as well, you can kinda relate to what is being said. Especially Radiohead and stuff.