I'm losing my grip on "reality" 13 replies

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horseflesh

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#1 13 years ago

I've been through a mountain of shit, in the space of 4 years I have suffered the loss of both my grandmothers, the loss of my uncle by MRSA, the loss of another uncle by suicide, the loss of 4 of my best friends through various circumstances - cancer, alcoholism, car accident and heart attack. The loss of one of my best friends father, the loss of my dog, Patch. My mums severe illness (I am now her carer, which is hard to cope with), my dad has suffered 2 severe strokes, and I myself have suffered with cancer of the testicles. Also my last girlfriend, before I had cancer was cheating on me. :( Have any of you guys had such bad luck ?, sometimes I feel as though I have been cursed. Sometimes I feel so "down" that I just want it all to end, but I'm too chicken to end it. The only reason I'm telling you unkown people is because I really have no one else to turn to, and I've taken to drinking every night to "forget".




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#2 13 years ago

Holy fuck...... You need a nice loooooooooong vacation. And no testicular cancer. I really hope life gets better pal. Mack




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#3 13 years ago

Hey man can i have your name please? I would like to have some people at my church including myself pray for you. And although i know im sure God knows who you are.... its jus tso much easier, ill be praying for you anyway.




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#4 13 years ago

That just sucks. $15 and Vegas should do the trick.




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#5 13 years ago

We're not you, we can't really help you, we can offer advice but that's about it. Life ain't gonna get better just by wishing it, if you want it to improve you're going to have to do something about it.




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#6 13 years ago

[color=black]Well, dude, I've been through some heavy shit, too. Best advice I can offer is don't give up--one thing to try is shake things up, get away from your old routine, stop doing things which bring you down, try some new things--a lot of new stuff, but start small. Decide for one day to change something, one thing, could be anything. And then in a couple days, try something else.[/color]

[color=black]And get outside--go somewhere peaceful, maybe someplace you've never been before, hell, a river or lake, wherever. Seriously, depression is self-feeding and you're only going to feel worse by sitting, doing the same old crap and looking at the same old surroundings, and alcohol is just going to enhance this shitty feeling. Get some sun in your face, seriously, that helps.[/color]

[color=black]I really suggest to face your life with a sober mind and do some writing or something, talk to someone you trust and get the junk out of your head.[/color]

[color=black]If you don't have many people to talk to, feel free to PM me.[/color]

[color=black]"Once you hit the bottom, the only direction left is up."[/color] [color=black] Forgot who said that, but it is true.[/color]




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#7 13 years ago
horsefleshI've been through a mountain of shit, in the space of 4 years I have suffered the loss of both my grandmothers, the loss of my uncle by MRSA, the loss of another uncle by suicide, the loss of 4 of my best friends through various circumstances - cancer, alcoholism, car accident and heart attack. The loss of one of my best friends father, the loss of my dog, Patch. My mums severe illness (I am now her carer, which is hard to cope with), my dad has suffered 2 severe strokes, and I myself have suffered with cancer of the testicles. Also my last girlfriend, before I had cancer was cheating on me. :( Have any of you guys had such bad luck ?, sometimes I feel as though I have been cursed. Sometimes I feel so "down" that I just want it all to end, but I'm too chicken to end it. The only reason I'm telling you unkown people is because I really have no one else to turn to, and I've taken to drinking every night to "forget".

Drinking is t3h r0x0rs but it's the last thing you want to be doing when you're depressed. That's how psychological addiction starts, and that's a place you don't want to be going. Seeing as you've lost a friend to alcoholism I guess you don't need to be told why. I'm afraid that's all the advice I have. Nemm suggests you improve your situation, but I'm not entirely sure how you can improve upon multiple deaths and serious ailments that you can't control. You could always take one of my patented 'I don't give a shit' pills* I suppose, though it would require a lot of effort to achieve that state of mind when you're in your situation. What Nordicvs suggested would be the best way of doing so though. * I'm not suggesting you start popping pills, it's my way of referring to a certain state of mind.




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#8 13 years ago

Wow. That is pretty much the definition of bad luck. I've had depressions before, but nothing near what you're going through. What Nordicus said is true, you need to break free from your "old" routines. Things can only get better from now, keep that in mind. Suicide is not an option. If you do that, you'll be inflicting more sorrow on the people who love and know you. At least, that was the reasoning that kept me from doing it. I will not pray for you since I am not religious, but I wish you the best of luck. One day you will look back and be glad you didn't give up.


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horseflesh

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#9 13 years ago

Thanks guys, I don't know why I felt I had to burden you with my problems, I guess it's just good to talk. I've bottled up all these feelings for too long. I realise that there is people out there with more difficult things do deal with than what I have been through. I suppose I've just got to pull myself together, and stop feeling sorry for myself. Lets face it, no matter how hard things can get, we all have to get on with life on this strange little planet.




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#10 13 years ago
I guess it's just good to talk.

it is.It is better than keeping everything inside you bottled up.

Mind telling how your girlfriend cheat on you?And testicular cancer..what are its syndromes?




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