I'm not a man, I'm a MOUSE! 41 replies

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Liquid fire

I pretend I'm cooler than AzH

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#1 11 years ago

Guys I used to give advise years ago I stoped 1 self mutilator, I stoped 2 sudicides....I helped with love relationships. I had honors for grades my 1st year in high school . I was totaaly sane and together. I was becoming a man. I was becoming some one I respected in life, someone I cared about. I had the fire with in me to study hard and to get good grades. The world respected me and I feelt good about myself. I only cared about being all I could be.

One day I saw the paranormall. I lost myself totaaly in the bizarre events that for took. I saw very strange and outrageous things that made me faint. I was ill sickened. I started to loose focus on reality. Im more like a child or a mouse than I am a man. Im such a dsiapointment. Im such a looser. Im a noob in life. I wasnt soft before but now I am very soft...Im not even a man anymore.

My college grades are horrible I dont do anything right but I probabally could. Im lost Ive forsaken myself. Ive denied myself. Ive ruined my life and I cant stop ruining it . Am I cursed to be d**ned! Am I here to die like a dog! GOD HELP ME!!! PLEASE!

IVe been off for so long and all I can think about is the paranormall since Ive seen it , its all I can think about its a cloud in the mind a violent scare.. Im a looser I aint no one. Ive tried killing myself but I talked myself out of it everytime. I continue to live but is the choice worth it? If only you guys could see me . Im a looser Im a noob.

F*CK IT!!! Maybe I should die soon , I cant escape this curse I cant be the man I used to be or even half that man anymore. GOD PLEASE HELPE ME before its too late before I have to end this horrible mess Ive made for good and once and for all.

Guys if you ever given advice before or want to attempt this then go ahead becuase Ive always given advice because of things like this in my life happening but Ive never been able to cure myself of this d**n-nation. Im a noob, I dont care about women, I dont care about school I dont care about anything anymore after seeing the paranormall Im been so scared so frightened that any man that was in me is a child....I hate myself.

Im thinking about atleast hurting myself, I was once a smart person but now Im just a side show freak, yah Im emo . I dont care anymore. I dont care. I dont even care if I live or die anymore. Im lost. Im not even a man anymore , Im afaird and Im lost . IM AFAIRD!

Im a noob..I could slide off the side of the earth and not one single woman besides my own mother would miss me. Im nothing Im such a looser. I dont have ANY FRIENDS I HAVE ZERO FRIENDS. I have no girlfriend and I never go outside.

I wish I could know how to get respect for myself again and from others. Its like my heart forgot how to be a man.

Im nothing Im so worthless Im not worth a dime. Im just a ADD disorder peice of SH*T.

Please guys help me Im so lost and my family cant help me. I need to hear it from a man not my father...Some one out there may be able to save me but my world as it is right now is nothing but defeat and decay and I cant get motivated anymore I cant be some one Im just a looser....I feel cursed.

I used to give advice I was a good person and I was good at advice but Ive fallen far away from that person.




FlyGuy45

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#2 11 years ago

To be honest, this is not the place to ask for help. I would suggest you see a therapist. It would be benefical for you, and for the people you love, and who love you.




deathwarder

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#3 11 years ago

what is the paranormal?




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#4 11 years ago

Paranormal can be classified as anything that is not "normal"

Usually it is attributed to ghosts, spirits, or aliens


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#5 11 years ago

yeah....help is need for him badly


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Liquid fire

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#6 11 years ago

I just need strenght that I dont have to move on. Inspiration , motivation, a reason to go on. I dont need a doctor.




Joe Bonham

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#7 11 years ago

I've seen the "paranormal" - and I considered it a blessing, not a curse. Don't let it it freak you out.




Cap'n Rommel

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#8 11 years ago

"Normal" is highly overrated if you ask me :)




Liquid fire

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#9 11 years ago
Machiavelli's Apprentice;3411084I've seen the "paranormal" - and I considered it a blessing, not a curse. Don't let it it freak you out.

Ok, I guess I'll try. It's real hard though. When I saw it I was terrified. Imagine this full of life in your bed room when you are 100 percent sure you are a awake....imagine that and hearing a recording said to be hell....

http://www.jesus-is-savior.com/sounds/sounds_from_hell.mp3

Ok the link for the audio is cheesy as hell but that is what I heard as I saw my room turned into this...TELL ME YOUD STILL BE SANE.....

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deathwarder

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#10 11 years ago

if you were asleep then no problem, just a dream. Otherwise, Id be worried too. But, theres no reason to lose inspiration. I lost it once, but you just need to move on