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Macaquinhos

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#1 12 years ago

I don't know why i'm telling y'all this, but i need to tell someone, it's burning a hole inside me; hold this all in.

I find no point in living anymore. What is life really? Why am i here, why should i be here? We all will die someday, why go through years of pain, because all boiled down, that's all life really is; pain and suffering speckled with some splotches of joy. So what's gunna happen the rest of my life? Oh let's see here, i'll go to school, then college, get a job, and then work until i'm old and decrepit and die. Sounds fun. I can't find real joy in life anymore...i've been eating uncontrolabley, i always have to be eating something to occupy me. I find my religion as my only saving grace and reason i haven't killed myself. Suicide is unforgivable and none who commit suicide can ascend into heaven, so i gotta hang on and see what the Good Lord has in store for me. I pray every night for help, and i'm starting to say the rosary beads every sunday. I hope this helps.

I just read Beowulf and it made me realize somethig...no matter what we do or who we help, everything and everyone will eventually be swallowed up in death. I can be the greatest philanthropist ever, and in a few centuries, i will be forgotten. So why go through life and exhaust yourself building up and image that eventually will be forgotten.

On the outside my life is great, i have no really good reason to want to die, which is why i think i'm clinically depressed. wtf is wrong with me? I know you guys don't care, and probably are reading this thread thinking i'm just a retarded teenager, but i don't care, i just don't care about anything anymore...




Delta Force

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#2 12 years ago

Please don't kill yourself, you have so much to live for. If the only reason you haven't done so already is because of your religion than you need some serious pyschological help, for your own sake.




Macaquinhos

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#3 12 years ago

i just don't want my parents do really find out that i'm depressed, it would devestate them... i wish i could go see a pyschologist though. The school counselors are morons and will make up some bullshit and tell me to go watch some happy, gay movie.




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#4 12 years ago

I suggest you go volunteer some place. A soup kitchen, a school for the mentally disabled. Someplace where you can help people. I don't know about you but when I see a person smile and I know I was the one that put that smile there, it makes me feel good.




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#5 12 years ago

MacaquinhosI don't know why i'm telling y'all this, but i need to tell someone, it's burning a hole inside me; hold this all in.

I find no point in living anymore. What is life really? Why am i here, why should i be here? We all will die someday, why go through years of pain, because all boiled down, that's all life really is; pain and suffering speckled with some splotches of joy. So what's gunna happen the rest of my life? Oh let's see here, i'll go to school, then college, get a job, and then work until i'm old and decrepit and die. Sounds fun. I can't find real joy in life anymore...i've been eating uncontrolabley, i always have to be eating something to occupy me. I find my religion as my only saving grace and reason i haven't killed myself. Suicide is unforgivable and none who commit suicide can ascend into heaven, so i gotta hang on and see what the Good Lord has in store for me. I pray every night for help, and i'm starting to say the rosary beads every sunday. I hope this helps.

I just read Beowulf and it made me realize somethig...no matter what we do or who we help, everything and everyone will eventually be swallowed up in death. I can be the greatest philanthropist ever, and in a few centuries, i will be forgotten. So why go through life and exhaust yourself building up and image that eventually will be forgotten.

On the outside my life is great, i have no really good reason to want to die, which is why i think i'm clinically depressed. wtf is wrong with me? I know you guys don't care, and probably are reading this thread thinking i'm just a retarded teenager, but i don't care, i just don't care about anything anymore...

This kind of stuff kills me everytime I hear it.

What on earth do you have to complain about? Not a damn thing. Stop whining, quit complaining. You don't need pills. Pull yourself up by your bootstraps.

You need to cowboy the fuck up.

Find something you like to do and do it. Build plastic models, watch porn, play paintball, be a pyro. Just don't cry for attention and go emo, those people are pathetic personified.




Macaquinhos

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#6 12 years ago

Ma DeuceThis kind of stuff kills me everytime I hear it.

What on earth do you have to complain about? Not a damn thing. Stop whining, quit complaining. You don't need pills. Pull yourself up by your bootstraps.

You need to cowboy the fuck up.

Find something you like to do and do it. Build plastic models, watch porn, play paintball, be a pyro. Just don't cry for attention and go emo, those people are pathetic personified.[/quote]

Depression is a chemical imbalance in the brain, a legit disorder, and why i think it's depression: for exactly your reasoning. I'm not emo or goth, or an attention whore cry baby. I honestly can't help myself from drifting to these insane thoughts. It's so not me! I always felt happy-go-lucky and just recently i look at everything as shit.

[quote=Afterburner]I suggest you go volunteer some place. A soup kitchen, a school for the mentally disabled. Someplace where you can help people. I don't know about you but when I see a person smile and I know I was the one that put that smile there, it makes me feel good.

That's a pretty good idea afterburner, i should look into it :)




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#7 12 years ago

Aw hell, I'm old school. No excuses.

See Ms. Miller in your signature? Go grab some lube and let 'er rip.




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#8 12 years ago

@Maca

I'll tell you what, man. Go find a nice comfy chair or couch to sit on & write. You need to write a whole lot about everything you can think of. Write about what makes you sad, how you feel, & whatever else on your mind. You don't need to write a book, but you need to write a journal, or write down short pieces on slips of paper lying around.




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#9 12 years ago

Well, on some cases it is a chemical imbalance in the brain.

But on teenagers, 99,99% percent of the cases are not related to it (hell, most mental conditions won't show up until you're and adult). If its a chemical imbalance, YOU WILL NEED MEDICATION, but i really don't think thats your case... Depression related to phisiological problems is usually quite fucking strong, the "Don't get up of bed for 4 days" tipe of thing... And believe me, i know from experience, my family is a fucking bunch of lunatics of all tipes and shapes...

About fighting it:

Afterburner idea is a good one... Helping people, especially people on a worst situation them yours is always good.

Other thing is working out... Hell, working out has done wonders to me, both phisically, feeling less tired, etc, and also mentally... I REALLY RECOMMEND exercices, be it working out, running, soccer, etc... Just put yourself to it, do it every fucking day and i bet my ass lots of this will go away.

Also, remember, youre a teenager. Most teenagers go through "oh life is shit" periods... Just dont drag yourself into it, keep busy and looking for things you enjoy doing (be it studying, exercises, driving, dating or doing crazy stuff like drinking your ass off and them setting your hair on fire [been there, done that]...).




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#10 12 years ago
MacaquinhosI don't know why i'm telling y'all this, but i need to tell someone, it's burning a hole inside me; hold this all in. I find no point in living anymore. What is life really? Why am i here, why should i be here? We all will die someday, why go through years of pain?

You want find out all those things, why not live to find out? :)