13th October 2004
i feel like i need to write this down...
i dont know why but i feel like nobody realy does cares about me... in my mind i know this is wrong... i know that they do but for some reason i feel like that they dont... i cant explain it... its like you know that somthing is right and yet if feels wrong...
i felt like this sence the beggining of the year... and some what threw out summer.... im not sure why... i started wait lifting because i thought that it could help me get over my problem... i told my "friends" that i started because i "want to get strong" or "i have nothing else better to do" or things like "why not start?" i started it in the hopes i will for once... feel right. like i have no sence of fear, sadness, depression... for a while it worked but not now... i dont know why wait training isnt helping anymore... im lifting more and more and its not helping any...
i feel like crap threw out the entire day... yesterday... the day before that... and the day before that... and i dont know what is wrong with me now...
i hate the way i act... i hate it... i try my best to push myself... to be able to put up a well constructed mask... like im fine... like im normal... like i am the last person in the world that would ever feel so fucking depressed... i dont like relying on others for help... i feel even worser asking for help for the smallest things... i never barrow money, i try my best to become independent... and when i fucking accept help from someone else... i feel like an ass... because it shouldnt be like that...
a couple ass holes in team sports will mess with me every now and then... they are not the main problem... they are just one more thing... for the most part i gotten them to stop messing with me... i kept threating them... they finaly backed off...
its like what happend to me when i was younger... everytime someone made me mad... i threatend them... or i would some times act on that threat... i hated my self for doing the things i did... i dont want to hurt anyone... no matter what peaple might say i am not a bad person... i swear i am not... right now... i just want to be left alone... im starting to rethink why i wrote this down here...
i noticed im never around anyone any more... like everyone just picked up and left... and they dont want anything to do with me... i dont know whats wrong with me... why do i hurt peaple... why do peaple make me hurt them? why? i never wanted to fight... but i do... i just do... if they hit me first i hit them back... i dont want to fight.... i just want them to leave me alone...
can anyone help me?!? any help would be good... pm me or post here... my e-mail is [email]email@example.com[/email] ok... just... i need help...
why am i so fucking depressed and why do i do the things i do...
Jeff is a mean boss
28th July 2002
A lot of people feel that way, or similar to it. Especially teenagers. I know i did, i felt like no one liked me, or i was not "cool", but you will get over it, and you will realize that life is worth it, even with its hardships
18th November 2004
I've been through several episodes like that, I know it can suck. It's all a part of growing up and being a teenager. You just have to have hope that the next day will be better.
However, if you notice that these feelings are persistent and you have any thoughts of suicide or anything like that, you might have depression. I'm no medical expert, but if this keeps up, you might want to tell a doctor or your parents or something.
Wanna go Double Dutch?
9th December 2003
You are indeed not the only one by far. Lots of teenagers went through it asking themselfs who they are and what purpose they have. I too went through it and felt severly depressed and alone. In the end I did what my heart told me to do and though I went through a hell and felt even more lonly then before (told my classmates what I thought of their behaviour and they abandoned me, though in the end they were the ones who became changed and became mature rather then my keep on acting like a kid). I realised many people still appriciated me for who I was (am) and that even though I felt lonly I wasn't. Time passed and the feelings eventually disappeared.
So just stay on track, follow your heart and do what you think is right. It might hurt sometimes but in the end everything will turn out okay. To appreciatethe beautiful aspects of life more you first must go through hell. Believe us eventually everything will change for the better.
7th March 2005
Sounds to me like you are lonely! You need some companionship of some kind. Try calling up an old friend and make a time to meet up and do something. I bet that will help some!
I don't spend enough time here
4th October 2005
Mullet ManSounds to me like you are lonely! You need some companionship of some kind. Try calling up an old friend and make a time to meet up and do something. I bet that will help some!
SCHOFIELD DID 4/30
10th August 2004
6th July 2005
Well, a girlfriend always does wonders.... ;) As everyone else has said thus far, the fact that you're a teenager is why you are so depressed. Seeing as how you're a sophmore now, you're probably stressed beyond comprehension. And stress usually leads to depression. So, I'd definatly try to relieve it somehow. Here's some ideas (these are in no specific order): 1. GF -- Whenever my wife isn't home, I like to come to this place. I find that (sometimes) it helps to relieve stress, and [usually] I leave in a good mood. 2. Socialise -- Friends are, well, friends. You can always talk to them about this. Since they know you better than anyone else here, they are better able to help you with this "problem." 3. Don't push yourself -- times like these, the last thing you need is to start adding more stress to your life. Take life in the slow lane for a little while. Just be yourself, and hold-off on trying to be better than who you really are. Of course, in rare cases this can cause you to sink even lower than you are now, but the vast majority of the time, taking it easy really helps. 4. Girlfriend -- my first sentence was very serious. Granted, I've only had three in my lifetime (met my wife in 7th grade -- I believe "love at first sight" is the proper term here), but they can be a great influence and "guiding light" in your life, even if they dump you after a couple of months. There are a few other ideas I'd recomend, but I'm tired, and I don't really fell like thinking all that much. Trust me, though. I've been there, and I feel for you man. Hell, I'm still stressed in my life. But it's just something that we all have to cope with. It's just a question of how well you can cope with it.
30th September 2005
[COLOR=navy]You're NOT the only one, dude, many people feel like this - and indeed are actually going through the thase where nobody wants them - or so it seems. Just hang on in there, dude, live it through, believe me, cope through this and you'll be able to cope with anything.[/COLOR] I myself had this problem when I was 14. I had just been diagnosed with diabetes, and people saw that as wrong. They didn't want to know me - they thought diabetes was contagious. They soon learned it wasn't. Slowly, they began to communicate with me again.
12th June 2005
I was going to write something like this a week or so back. I've been through the same thing recently but then for some reason overnight, it just changed. Try not to worry about it.