Thisw eine whine tastes like shit. My life is the saem as always. I attract a girl and then crush her heatr without ever feeling my own. It'sr raly not such a problem. My somtach hurts. There is always a girl that is atleast interested in me, but then I dont know hot to act and show her Im interestedin her. I mean I always have my defensse up. I dont want to let anyone in . Ive elearned to live wihtou t a girl more whole life.
They get inteested inm me nut Im afaird to show Im interested nback so I ignore them and it hurts like hell inside . It hurts so bad and then they start to get hryte. I dont want to hyrt them but that's why I just let them dwon east. I simply dont shiw I care about ehm. They always can tell that I do nut I in the end break that and go back to my own self.
I was an aclhoolic now I thin,k Im becoming one again.I wouldnty casre if I could feel nothing at all inside. I would rather bbe an computer than a disfunctionall human.
I xcant cha ge my ways so I will always hurt those who want to be with me an care about me. Im too old to change now. IT huryxts so bnad.
I drinkm yself to death. Ill drink myself wto death.
Why life if you cannot even learn to love ? I canbring them in but I cannot even love someone. All I do is hurt oyhers and mytself. ''
I throw myselfonto the mercy of GOd and yet he still denys me. He still challenges me .
THIS IS EMO. Ive learned to expect Im very emotionall and abriillant artist becuase of it. Im tired of hurtin women.
Awww my stomach burns. Let it kill em. I dont care. I grow eeweak and older and I still cannot touch or even feel my heart's sdesriers.desires.
Im putting rthis fucking bottle away. Ive learned to survie twith this hurt and Im not viginv up now I just hate hyryting peiople just because they want to love me.OF all reasons to hurt people that ahs the be twotrse.
Can you even imagine being molded and conditione dffrom your past to not be able to show or allow touertyour self to love. To be agfairxd?
IT hurts so fiucjking bad. Sure Ic an filrt butthat not even direct its coying style. Then I cant even show a girl I like her. ufm I, sociallhy retarded .
I wont drink myself to death unlest hos pain in my stomach will gikill me. I put this fucking pbttle away. I leive I live.
I HATE HUTYINGF THEM! I FUC
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You can either agree with meor be wrong.
12th November 2003
Worst post ever.
Uhhh, I think the poor slob's drunk. :wiener: